lazy day

i miss the days when my writing was inspiring, where has my voice gone? i want to write something insightful, but maybe that isn't possible when i'm actually happy most of the time. day off today and the weather is awful - a haze covered the lake and the fields so densely that it was impossible to see to the end of the pasture or across the lake to gränna. the visibility came and went during the day, but the mist never waned so i remained indoors until the afternoon, which always puts a damper on my spirits. started the pd james book that jess just finished the private patient, and read the first nine chapters. i got tired of reading this awful verse version of medea, but i will finish it tomorrow. got back on jm.org for a while, but no one else was on - i guess i will see how it goes for the next few weeks. once i get back to jackson, i won't be able to write every day or get online the way i am now, but at least i can make an effort to keep in touch in the meantime. had lots of coffee, a spinach and mushroom omelet for breakfast. stayed in until around 3:45 finishing true blood season one, then headed out for a ride with katie in search of pastries. tina said everything should be open since sunday is such a big tourist day on the island but due to the weather, most of the cafes closed early and even the coop nara was sold out of their baked goods. we headed to the harbor, hoping for better luck. on the western road i lost control of my bike in the water as a car was passing us and with no shoulder on the narrow road, i ate the asphalt and almost katie's front tire. my leg is a little worse for wear now and my ankle is a little off, but all should be better come morning. it looks like the weather may hold, so it seems like maybe tina moved the day off in vain. went back to the pizza restaurant as last week and ran into the tina in the parking lot as they were leaving an early dinner. got a fresh danish and a half liter of mariastads and headed out to the patio, sans american cover band. we were given spendrups emblazoned blankets by our waitress to stave off the cold. on the way back, we took the forest road and started to get wet. it wasn't clear if it was from the trees or if the rain had picked up, but once we cleared the canopy cover it was clear that the precipitation had in fact picked up and that it was only the trees that had kept us relatively dry up until that point. mike was over at the house when we got back and kept us company over veggie dogs and coffee as we warmed back up. showered and then started to watch eastern promises. billy called halfway through the movie and it was good to hear his voice after yesterday's uncertainty. finished the movie and i don't know how i really felt about it. time to curl up with the private patient and see what tomorrow brings. a wasted day, but this might be may last chance to truly squander my time for months to come.