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ten days until stockholm, eleven days until austin, twelve days until jackson. unreal. school is starting so soon and i am still sitting here in swden. i'm sure this feeling will just be mounting as the days go on. started reading euripides' hippolytus today and i'm having flashbacks to seneca. intertextuality, folks - gotta love it. i am a little worried about jumping back into latin and greek (especially as a tutor) because, well, i haven't read all summer. on friday i will have been traveling for three months. today over coffee after we got back from the field, we started talking about high school and i brought up marching band and i realized that i really haven't given myself a break since sophomore year of high school - it has always been go, go, go. maybe even before that - in middle school i was doing band and playing soccer...for three separate teams. facing down this coming year, i'm worried and tired, but i guess i've been putting myself in the same situation for years and years - committing every moment of every day to something. at least i have the practice of taking the sat and acct during marching season because i will be doing the same with taking the gre this year, amidst myriad things i barely have time to do on their own. had falafel for dinner and the rain that had rolled in around three this afternoon started to dissipate. watched true blood and then got in touch with billy. some things never do change. katie and jess went on a walk and when they got back i went for a ride - down to kumlaby then torp and back - a whopping twelve plus kilometers round trip. listened to played in space and tried to sort things out with the mindless peddling and the burn of my muscles starting to feel the faint pull of exertion. shower, tea to settle my nerves, finished catching up on true blood season three and now off to bed even though i'm not tired. maybe i'll never be happy.
there's no antidote for irony -
you say that you have,
when you know that you don't
and you say that you can,
and you say that you can,
when you know that you won't
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