cause i'm caught in suspension.
so, i just had a wonderfully productive afternoon, only to be cut short by a huge disappointment. i am about to walk to reuben's to meet up with april and martha, but let's see what kind of a diatribe i can pump out in five minutes.
basically, i reapplied for the RA position, and i just found out that i did not get it. my interview went very well, and i asked if they wanted any other information from me, and they didn't. i didn't go through the formal process since i was not here in the fall, but since i was going to be one of the seven RHDs, it seemed absolutely absurd that i would not be at least an RA if i returned to millsaps. getting RA would be a step down from the position i would have been holding this semester, but i didn't even get that. imagine being the manager of something, leaving, coming back, and not even getting a part-time position doing the same thing.
i was doing more, and you gave it to me. i have come back, proven that i am back and ready, and you still don't get it to me. i know that there were a ton of positions available, like 13, so it's not like it was even as competitive as when i got it the first time - when i was one of five new girls let onto the staff. this is ridiculous. i am so, so, so upset. i needed this job. i love this job. i needed the money, and i liked doing it. i had the best hall on freshman side, best attendance, least room transfers, least violations, best involvement, and somehow that isn't good enough? i actually did all my programs, unlike many people, always did paperwork on time, was always there when i was on duty and most times even when i was not, and still, this. i am horribly disappointed and upset. now, something that should have been close to a set deal has turned into an ordeal, and i'm not even completely settled into a routine and i'm being thrown into the ring, trying to figure out what i will do for next year.
i guess that was all i could get out in five minutes. more later, i'm sure.
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