horrible timing

i'm going to cry. this is the second external hard drive i have had crash, and i have lost all of my music and my photos, yet again. greece? gone. st louis? gone. all my pictures from home, my shows, my past - all gone. this is not the kind of purging i need in my life. my 600 GB of music? gone. i can't believe this. this is not what i needed right now.