i woke up in a car, i traced away the fog so i could see the mississippi on her knees.

work was really long and annoying today. lots of kids. and i was particularly irritable. i'm making myself write before i go to sleep....early morning tomorrow. i'll be leaving at the same time i got in last night. oops haha.

last night went over to kevins to smoke some hookah after work, which i got to leave a bit early...once people finally cleared out. it wasnt working very well, but i finally got to buy a dugout when we went to planet k for some coals and shit. should be a badass drive tomorrow. after we gave up on the hookah we went to see jess and john down near dean keaton and watched grandma's boy - which i finally finished! josh was awake, but kevin kept falling asleep...i felt bad. and then he overslept today....sorry :(

so, i can't wait to see everyone in jackson....its going to be fabulous.i'm excited to see (but not limited to...) sam, grant, erin, kath, susan, katelynn, luke, bouffanie, matt black, paige, phoebs, rachel, katie, kate, michael mohr, and zach. and all the other amazing people. im so stoked. lets hope the drive goes well though. i still need to get my shit together, i guess that's what i'm doing after this. i'm going to try and write during my "liminal time" on the road tomorrow. maybe some good shit will come of it.

yesterday morning/afternoon was the worst though. first, i was supposed to get coffee with sarah but i overslept and so did she. then when i woke up kevin wanted me to come over and smoke his new hookah with him....and i got up to get dressed, and my mom makes me go with her to pick up the cr-v from the airport so i can drive it instead of my honda to jackson. whatever. but then the next fews hours consist of lunch, getting the drop shadow and touch ups done to my soco tattoo, a flat tire on my moms element, new hospital bills to pay, one massive panic attack, and lots of arguments. then i was late for work...but kevin came and just sat with me for a long time. it completely made my night...he is such a sweetheart.

my only worry about going out of town is you dear. please let us have a chance...and wait for me. and no more secrets. let's give this a shot...okay? i still want you to be here...interested in me...when i get back.