i fooled the crowd

forgive me, you cut out again - it seems so easy just to blame the reception
but theres something wrong and i dont know why
Why you, you never say goodbye so please just leave,
you dont mean that much to me you keep the ring,
ill take those saturdays in bed
cause i know you need them
as for me its nothing new just another two years
i wish we'd always wake up new,
refreshed and born again with nothing left to lose
but we dream too much and who needs a crutch?
pull off the bandage, theres no wound
so please just leave, you dont mean that much to me
give back the ring, keep all those summers with your friends
cause you know you need them
as for me its nothing new just another two years
that im here losing sleep
your sore thumb,
your best defense is miles from home
oh and it reads like a letter, with the words all broken
erased them with a razorblade
cause youre gone i was lost then i found you
but im breaking down now that...

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im nicotine , im coming clean
i fooled the crowd
when i made it sound like i was more than ready
strike up the band, deprive my sleep
cause there’s no love like apathy
the bell that tolls rings loud enough
that it should have woke us up
im trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish i’d wrote
cause I feel like i’ve been losing you
i read your last entry
over-privileged kids keep crying
the need to fit in gets harder
when living life from a screen
old classmates please drop all your pens
don’t write a word cause i won't reply
and I’m not bitter, no, it's just i’ve passed that point in my life
im trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish id wrote
cause i feel like ive been losing you
each night it ends too soon
you dont hold me like you used to
and your eyes look like theyve seen too much
'cause it's always some excuse
too tired, too obtuse
you look so far removed
this time i fear i’m losing you for good
im nicotine, im a cash machine
im the color green
and you should've seen the looks I just received
i need a reason to let go
an intervention, or a lullaby
something to cure me, please believe me--
im trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish id wrote
cause i feel like ive been losing you
each night it ends too soon
you dont hold me like you used to
and your eyes look like they’ve seen too much but
it's always some excuse
too tired, too obtuse
you look so far removed
this time I fear I’m just not getting through